10th December 2008

Tonight finally have some mood to "get" myself into the "online community" -- msn , surf net. Everyone seems to be silent in their own life, nth happens, as I know -- peace~~ . Rather than feel that it is peaceful, I felt strange. So bad I am to hope for something to happen, no matter good or bad. Oh ya, yesterday passed the street in Kuchai Lama, shocked to see that Small Hong Kong restaurant finally dissapear ( dunno by how la, bankrup or relocate).

9th December 2008

What have I done in this seems-never-end holiday? No doubt about it, eat and sleep.. I will think that I am pig if I am not in shape of human. Now I begin to realise that i am so powerless. Yes, I am, from the time I was born. Why I don't have the courage to change anything that is going to happen. I know it will, and I hope it won't. Many chances lost if I continue that way. Come On!! You won't die by just fail to do something!!

献给所有爱上天秤座男孩的女孩

Nth to post wo, just stay at home lately... So just forward some articles from forum, haha.

首先，如果你不漂亮，身材又不好，嘿嘿，你几乎没有成功的可能，
虽然我们天平座的男子也会时不时地联络一下你，也会对你和蔼可亲，
但别被假象蒙骗了，我们只是不想树立敌人罢了，我们其实永远都喜欢脸蛋漂亮的，
体型好的女孩，一个是自己看着舒服，另一个呢，
带出去能让别人看着也舒服----别扔鸡蛋呀。

如果你恰好是既不漂亮又不性感，又恰好偏偏喜欢上了我们，
那只有一点可以让我们对你刮目相看：那就是从你的气质和衣着品味上共同改变。
我们天平座的男子永远都在思考，永远都在权衡着平衡，
我们也许表面上不动生色，其实早已经把要做事情的前因后果，
来龙去脉想上几百遍了，之所以不做结论，是因为结论是有，
不过太多了点，不知该取舍哪个而已，一个有行动性的女孩更令我们心动。

我们打电话给你，说一些暧昧的话，好像永远都是那么的波澜不惊，
那么的不正式，让你根本分辨不出到底是什么意思？而我们只有两种可能：
一种情况是真的喜欢你，说和做的都是深思熟虑，老谋深算后的试探伎俩，
而另一种情况，咳咳，就是我们喜欢挑逗女孩子，喜欢让你们陷入我们魅力的漩涡。

我们不喜欢太缠人的女孩，不喜欢究根问底打探我们隐秘的女孩，
对付我们天平座的男子，穿着时尚点，打扮漂亮点，在私底下由衷地赞美我们，
你在我们心目中的分值就会增加，但永远记住，不要过早的说爱我们，
就好像玩一个有趣的游戏，你先亮了底牌，就不好玩了，
也许我们就会重新坐庄，另找对手。

几个问题：
1.天平座男子犹豫吗？
告诉你，绝对是！我们想得多，理由多，唯独做的不多，对于让我们决定什么，
因为不断在权衡利弊，越权衡越累，所以最后反倒会放弃这件事

2.为什么天平座男子对你忽冷忽热，不给你打电话？
在心底里，我们天平座男子倒是想结交天下所有女孩，
并会在内心归档分类，如果开始你和我们谈得很投机，并互通了电话或短信，
你也不要太兴奋，因为我们对每一个刚认识的女孩好像都这样，
但这样之后我们就会逃离，我们害怕不自由，怎么判断他对你的感觉呢？
简单点说吧，如果你只在过年过节收到他的电话或短信，
那你在他心中还不太重要，如果偶尔会有（这个偶尔也可能是一两个星期），
那说明你在他心中还算不错的，哈哈，不过有一点你要切记，
如果你喜欢上一个天平座男子，那么如果他给你电话或短信，
你最好回，如果你很少回，相信我，你会在他心中被剔除，
天平座的男子其实对利害得失很在意，虽然表面上不在意。

3.是不是好多女孩都非常奇怪而且非常惊讶一个天平座男子会知道那么多自己的事情？
其实，我们对自己感兴趣的女孩都会在私底下了解得清清楚楚，
如果有一天一个你不相识或不太熟悉的天平座男子会不经意（其实是故意）
的说出你的名字或一些只有你知道的事，你也别害怕，那说明他对你很感兴趣。

4.发现了吗？天平座男子好像很容易喜欢上天平座女孩，
不过这里特别说一下天蝎座女孩，很多天蝎座女孩都对和天平座男子相处没有信心，
其实在天平座男子眼里，天蝎座女孩很有魅力的，
只要别太坚持自己的意见，表现得柔和点，你会成功的。

Loooong holiday ah~~~~ boring...

weekend

This week, all my housemates had gone back to KL, just left me alone. Looking at the empty house + the current month = frightening. But still can overcome the loneliness, since manhou didn't back so fast, needed to wait till Sunday.

I wonder how can I survive this, but the truth is I am still here. They are going to back here today, hehe. Hope they bring something for me. ^^

Accident or fate

Today when went to badminton court. I forgot to bring along my keys, which left hanging on the front door of my house. When reached there, my friends brought along my keys, with my key chain in 2 broken pieces......

Maybe this is a good sign for a new beginning of my life, throw away the past. Or it means that I will died causes of heart attack? god knows~~ (~.~)

烦烦烦！！

这个学期将接近尾声，assignment的due date也跟着到来了。
我竟然还有三个还没完成，
再过三天就要presentation了，
现在连point都还没完成，
point没有，如何做slide？
没有slide，如何present？
死了，死了。
加上组友又闹翻了。。

今天，
朋友又告诉我，
“明天你有practical assessment wo”，
天啊~~
保佑我平安无事吧！！
南无阿弥陀佛~~~

Back to KL

It has been a while I din back to KL(actually just 2 weeks), because I sick when back last time, so it doesn't count in lo. I swear that I will play enuf this time before I back!!


Friday
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But something happened before that, I "lost" RM40!!! because of my stupid brain and the PTPTN. zzz... friday should pass up the PTPTN form which applied with stems, but i left them at home!! OMG, I have to buy again, then I thought everything should be okay dy, but worse thing next, the officer said that I shouldn't write the line by using hand, must use ruler!!! OMG!! because of that, I had to buy stems again..... and refill the form.. sound stupid on why I care about this?? U will know why, because each stem costs RM10... =.=
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When reach to Pudu, quickly I contact Piew, while walking to LRT station, but shocking was, the queue was looooo...ong oo... I queue for almost half an hour.... Almost 5pm only reach Seri Petaling (feels good when back here). Suddenly wants to have a meal at McD, then told Piew to go McD waited for me. Before reach Carefour, the blur me pokai and almost fell into a longkang hole on the road side.(painful leh).

Then walked slowly to Carefour lo, when saw Piew, still looks like tat, haiz.. but felt great. ^^ Went to eat burger,haha, while Piew kept talk talk talk talk talk..... his love story, haha.

After that Piew brought me to PM(pasar malam), which I never went before. We bought some snacks and had curry mee, dry ho fun (taste good!!) -- i think this makes me grow more pimples T.T

Piew bring me go daji, and have a look on his "new target"'s blog, good to see how he was excited by the words from the blog.

Day gone darker, we went to Ajimal(mamak) to meet the guys, all with tiring look. Long time din see them, thats why I want to see everyone of them attentively and try to take photo(not sot jor la). Thank you everyone for let me c tat day, have to mention you all out ah? The 1st came is : Jenghui lo, Kokfai lo, Julian lo(because they had reached before us), then Xinli and Yankei lo, then Kamyuan, Goonyip, Goonwee looooo~~~~~ finally Karmun lo!! ok mention all dy. oh ya, Piew should be the 1st 1, lol.

Saturday
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Woke up quite early lo, while I don't want to. Promised to have breakfast with Piew ma, so quickly tumpang dad's car to school and wait Piew. What I ate dy? er... Ah!! We went to Alison!! I think the last time I ate here was when I was in form 5. The claypot yee mee!!curry mee!!! woo hoo~~ then this time I ordered a yee mee loo, and raised RM0.50 liao ah!!! now RM4.50... so expensive.. =.=

Then we walked to LRT and waited for Goonyip then went Times Square lu~~~


There had a function, donno whats that called, so noisy de music(linkin park type), in front door of TS.

After Jenghui reached, we went to Redbox in Lowyat and sing k!!! Tat "late comer" Waibin said that will reach in time, but still missing, then we sang 1st lo, dun care him 1st, hahaaa...

Finally in 3 smt, he reached, him too, long time din met, miss him so much(last night also din came yumcha, gf birthday, lol).

Just knew that Bian had graduated, and had apply for IMU, dunno for wad de, medical de gua.. (chinese medicine??)

sing sing sing, when reached 6pm, we thought we had to go but almost 7pm still can sang o, but I back le, because dad was waiting for me down there, haiz, had to say goodbye to them lo.

What else I can say? Still the same, friendship forever, 6 ghosts and me will rule in this month, lol, choi choi choi choi!!!

sot leh

hey hey, what is this?? ask kokfai then know lo!

Music tag??From Elly

Sekaligus do 2 tags, omg~~~HeyHey, this tag looks challenging leh!! Just do it!

Put your music player on shuffle.
Press forward for each question.
Use the song title as the answer to every question.
With the answers, comment on how it relates to the question.
Tag your mates.

1. How am I feeling today?
"Ai yu cheng" - Leo Ku
as what the song says, i feel better when alone, rather than laugh for nth in a crowd...

2. Will I get far in life?
"Jin tian ni yao jia gei wo" - David Tao & Jolin
omg, how to say...i think i will say it to the other 1, of course not today. Won't collapse until i enjoyed the retiree's life.

3. How do my friends see me?
"Jing ge jin qu" - Leo Ku
varieties of views. depends on how i associate with them. from new friends to close friends, I can say that they will know the other self of me.

4. Will I get married?
"Hua tian cuo" - Leehom
i think it warns me not to do something "wrong" that makes me to get marry?

5. What is my best friend’s theme song?
Falco - Kita Hitomi
To those who watch "law of ueki" before, sure love this song , rite?

6. What is the story of my life?
Way back into love - Victor wong & Fish leong
along the life, there is nth that is not related to love?

7. What was high school like?
"ye man you xi" - Jolin
to make sure not to be "eliminated", must study hard hard hard!!

8. What’s in store for this weekend?
Dragostea din tei - O-zone
what am i going to say?

9. How is my life going?
"liu xing yu" - F4
eventhou we are at different places, i hope you all are ok under the same sky..

10. How can I get ahead in life?
"jia zhuang" - Jolin
something pretending is better than say the truth, but i hope i willn't have the chance to do so in the future..

11. What’s the best thing about your friends?
"rang wo huan xi rang wo jou" - Zhou hua jian
this are the best thing of them, but also the worst...

12. What song will they play at my funeral?
"zui shou xi de mo sheng ren" - xiao ya xuan
omg, i can't believe that i am their "stranger"!! i won't pass away peacefully~~

13. How does the world see me?
Goodbye - wei lan
izit the world say that to me when i pass away?

14. Do people secretly lust for me?
"shi cheng xiang shi" - David tao
they do that when they think they know me?? actually i don't understand much about the question.

15. How can I make myself happy?
"guang mang" - F.I.R
when i have a "destination" on where i should head to!! means when i have something to do.

16. What should I do with my life?
"dou jiang you tiao" - J.J.
as simple as i could~~"worryless"!

17. Will I ever have children?
Night fever - initial D
i will when i am too high at night? impossible... =.=

18. What would you strip to?
"fou sheng ruo shui" - lin feng
strip help me calm down?

19. What does your mom think about you?
"mo deng shi dai" - rong zhu er
feel that i am not up to date? if according to the song, i am different person between family and friends.

20. What is your deep, dark secret?
"qiu niao" - pang ling
i trap my very ownself deep inside my heart? if it is so, maybe it is my feeling..

21. What is your mortal enemy’s theme song?
"san hu hai" - jay chow & sara
how mortal it is? he/she likes to dive?

22. What is your personality like?
"qian nian zhi lian" - F.I.R
young man body but thousand years old man's peresonality?

23. What song will be played at your wedding?
"ming ming hen ai ni" - victor wong & fish leong
suitable very much! mayb it means i face many troubles to have this wedding successful.

24. Your overall theme song?
"xia xue" - ah du
i like slow sentimental songs, like the view of snowing..

Tag who??
Crazyboy la
Hippiekingdom's king
mr.lulu
etc. etc. ( mean those who read this)

tag tag tag~~~

1st of all the tag from SHARK!!!(FisH)

hey hey, had been tagged long time ago, now only make it, sry oo.. so sry.. dun angry ya?

Instructions : Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 3 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
walauyeh, what age now leh, ask something like this? after have a steady work, life then marry lo, of cause must find the other half 1st lo! Maybe 30++?

2. If you have the chance, what would you probably say to your beloved one?
"Nice to meet u!","Hi"?? I think is "How are you...?"

3.The thing you want the most now. Yes! NOW!
An air-cond, so HOT!!

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
back to KL.

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Grow taller, lol.

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
No, absolutely..I answer this before?

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
trust..

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
rent a better house with air-cond~~~

9. If you could have one wish, what would it be?
no more worries.

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
(again..omg =.=)
very direct?
like to travel?
like to shop?
dun blame me, i didnt know you very much yet leh >.<

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
(nah, c from previous post, lazy to say again...)

12.Describe your fantasized-life.(again..)
bungalow with servants, car with driver... shops without worrying about money.....omg~~

13. What is your ambition?
teacher?

14. What is the thing that will make you say someone is bad?
when he/she is not telling the truth.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
be optimistic

16.Are you a shopaholic or not?
not quite, but will become more serious~~

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
dont be so "cool", talk more!!

18. How would you feel if your friends ditched you ? For example : Went out to have fun and everyone was invited except for youu, they already planned to ditch you in the beginning.
Depress at the beginning, but will try to forget about it..(again)

19.Honestly, do you think life is fair?
no la, for reason, look for the previous tag. :p

20. Are you missing anyone now?
erm, i miss my cousin..

3 lucky persons I tag:
who leh?
i will tell them later on.

At kampar

Me, my parents went kampar on Saturday and reached at about 6 smt. When reached there, of cos went to my house 1st to do cleaning and blah blah. That day, All housemate are not around(still in kl), so mom and dad spend the night with me.

On the next day, we went to old town to sight and see. We chose to have lunch at a food court, somewhere near wet market. I saw almost all are noodles stall(I think is all if not include drinking stall). Quite good oh the noodles, n the fish ball, and fried ball etc. ehmmmm~~~
After that, we went to the supermarket, around the bus station to buy some stuff. The item are quite easy to find there, all item needed is there, lol.
The 3rd day is the 1st day to start class, woke up at 6.30am and had to take cold water bath. >.<>

This is the 4th day I arrived to Kampar. What happens? I am alone, far away from home, family, and friends. Mom and dad left today.

These days, I had gone around Kampar and see many things. There are 2 separates areas as I know, new town and old town. Old town with old buildings, furniture shop in a cinema, KFC VS PizzaHut, bus station, wet market ...


New town, is where I stay, here, lots of young persons, most are houses and here is where my campus, UTAR and TARC locate. Have an spot of commercial area, restaurants, bank, shops.



Anyway, here I should say farewell to all KL fellow frens, and family, eventhou they dunno my blog, haha.

恐怖事件

今晚去到外婆家吃晚饭。从外婆口中听说我们花园附近发生了命案！今天警方发现了两条腿！！听说是在国辉家附近的垃圾堆发现的。那个死者是个女生，其他“部分”还没找到！我的天！希望不要再发生了，打枪已经够吓人了，我不想多个不出门的理由~~

Another tag, by fish(shark, lol)

Omg~~~ tag again...

Instructions : Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 3 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
hmm, actually never think of marry, it bounds freedom!! but.... dunno, i think is 30s. Times that I have the abilitiesssss to marry. =)

2. If you have the chance, what would you probably say to your beloved one?
Easy! just "I love you...". To the future beloved one, if any. lol.

3. How many super-duper close friends do you have? List them out.
6 =.= dun wan to mention about them. So embarassing to have such frens. haha.

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Rome. I like artifacts. n the magnificent buildings. hmmm, so good. **imaginating**

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
pimples gone forever. haha. tats what i think of just now.

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Nono, drinking water! money.... food! money.... unless i become a cyborg.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
light except when sleeping.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
fly oversea to take my math course!!! A new house! renovate current house!!

9. If you could have one wish, what would it be?
Hope no more natural disaster? It grabs too much lives.

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Hmm, so hard to find the good points about her, lol.
She has high IQ.(no EQ? lol jkjk)
Can be a good friend to talk with. (I think)
She is a friend that I can ask about secondary school but never ask yet.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
(the other half of what? ear? half-ate orange? =x) No experience on this, so i just have the most basic requirements. =.=
1st, kind-hearted.
2nd, can tell me if face any trouble.
3rd, MUST be sympathetic. (at least understand me lo.)
4th, independent, dun hav to always rely on others.
5th, know self-improve.
6th, dun waste. =.=
7th, shops according to capability n NECESSITY.
8th, don't lie..
9th, AT LEAST, dun be heavy weight. lol.
10th, dun be so cool, because cool + cool = freeze~~~.
Okok, I list out too much, tats why I still single. lol.

12.Describe your fantasized-life.
Can travel around the world without worry about the budget!!! Have a house with all things automated. (such as give orders to computer by thinking about it.) No over-heated atmosphere. Have a "safe for sure" system. Have any type of private transports.

13. What to do in weekend?
Grandma's house, sleeping.... Zzz

14. What is the thing that will make you say someone is bad?
talking vulgar non-stop as he/she is used to it.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Care.

16.Are you a shopaholic or not?
No for sure, I will keep wasting time on choosing which to buy rather than buying. Most probably I won't buy until the last minute.

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
Ermmm… The quiet side of me, that makes people feel that I am lc at the moments I don’ really talk…(this reply dun hav to change, exactly the same >.<)

18. How would you feel if your friends ditched you ?
Keep thinking of my problems n depressed or keep emo (sry, still dun reli know wad "emo" means) but after that maybe will think on the positive way.(it saves my money actually)

19.Honestly, do you think life is fair?
I dun think life is fair. Because life is so fragile, it can be ruined by anything. What happens to those live in sichuan? Maybe they were once have wonderful lifes, wonderful future, they choose what they wan to be but in a sudden, all gone. To those out of boundaries, crime victims? abandon child? omg.... speechless..

20. Are you missing anyone now?
I think I am, but not very strong. It is fading.

3 persons I tag:
Eli
K.Kei
L.Ling

Blog Rating - I Hav a Good Blog!!

Found out this funny stuff on fish's blog which rate your blog by checking for bad words on your blog.

If it is posted in 5G's blog? lol. Need ~~Parental Guidance~~

After waited for long times, finally I have my handphone, yeah!!! Feel dissapointed that I have the gold colour!! I have no choice because blue de sold out le. At here, I pray I won't be the next prey >.< . Since almost all brothers had kena. lol. And yup, I have my notebook le, bought it on the last pc fair. haha. Not for gaming ah!! Eventhou I try to use it on gaming purpose, just not very good. Is for studying!! I mean the notebook for writing memo 1... lol, jkjk.

Tag by Eli

Today "visit" my blog and responsibility drives me to finish my first tag. If done anything wrongly, pls tell me.

The rules:-
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules
2. List eight (8) random facts about yourself.
3. tag eight people at the end of this post and list their names.
4. Let them know they've been tagged by leaving a comment on their blogs.

- Random Facts -

1. i like to be in a quiet environment, but not alone.

2. i enjoy the time on attend to do something and don't like to be disturbed/stared. (if do so, maybe i will gone mad)

3. i like to think/imagine, more than do/realize. (sometimes i just sit there and spend more than an hour doing nothing)

4. i used to say truth. (or at least i think it is true)

5. i like the view from highland. Better if it is cloudy + windy + the sound of dangled tree.

6. i feel uncomfortable when see something is untidy. I will clean it if I want to (depends on mood)

7. i used to hold something in my hand or playing it (mostly pen) when i am thinking.

8. i have no idea on dressing up. (eventhough i try to learn)

Tag: Those buddies who appear in my cbox! I think don't hav to mention, just a few only. JUST DO IT!!

Meaningless

Holiday started, since last month. Found that I had done nothing. If didn't count the "Deadly Hollow" that I had missed for more than a year (thx god finally I had chance to read it ), I just spend all time on computer. While friends are studying, preparing for exam, I just stay at home. Meaningless. Last friday, I went to Star Village(Kuchai Lama) with family to have mother's day's dinner. Quite a long time didn't have meal with my untie's family. No cakes, no gifts, a greet and a hug is more than enough(I think this is the best, economical! ).

Hope: get well soon from the sickness of boring.

Dissapear..ed

I hav missing for quite a long time. Dunno why, I felt tired to on9 dy. Quite lots of thing happened, for me. But bad 1s are more. Haiz. Just hope they never happened. Sry for the late post, actually not busy la, just goyang kaki at home. Oh ya, ji n qu, sry for the box of kfc ^^, before u send me the msg, it was in my stomach ardy. and sry that I 4get to say happy birthday, but thats me(always 4getful). Yip ah, shud b finish exam lo, fast ah.... what can I say? The more explanation u made, makes me doubt ur trustworthness more, dont hav to say anything, just go for ur exam. As u said, as brothers, just speak out, I rather know the bitter trust than sweet lie. Yup, its holiday now, for a month then have to go kampar, just hope that something good here can makes me feel that here is better than kampar. Always hope so..

Maths and facts of life

ok ok, I am lazy again, so take a look at this, quite "meaningful", lol:

ROMANCE MATHEMATICS
Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy
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OFFICE ARITHMETIC
Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime
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SHOPPING MATH
A man will pay $20 for a $10 item he needs.
A woman will pay $10 for a $20 item that she doesn't need.
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GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.
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HAPPINESS
To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.
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LONGEVITY
Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die
PROPENSITY TO CHANGE
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A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.
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DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE
A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.
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HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED
Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, "You're next."They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals

下雨了

今早醒来，
身躯竟累得动不了，
没办法之下，
只好继续睡下去了。

好久没试过了，
这种感觉，
昨天终于打羽球，
出了一身大汗，
距离上次，
已是去年的事。

现在
酸痛的身躯，
轻松的心情，
看着倾盆大雨，
人生一大乐事啊。

考试将近

再过两星期，
我将面临年终考试。

而现在的我，
却闲着，
在脑袋里的都是，
“不如游泳吧？”，
还是，
“打羽球咯！”，
“打机？”，
“饮茶？”。

心，
无时无刻地飘到某地，
要找回吗？
考试的降临，
就是它归来的时候吧。

既是轻松之时，
染上听歌习惯的我，
从Lite FM播放的歌曲中，
“寻找”到了，
那许久没在耳边出现的首首金曲。
当时，
兴奋难以形容，
享受同时，
也赞叹自己的“找歌技术”。^^

无形中，
心。。。
回来了。。。

暗恋

These days dunno wad to post , so I just picked a article from forum a paste here la , enjoy .

人說，暗戀的職責是沉默
沉默，因為我不知道怎麼開口，怎麼對你說。

沉默，因為我說不出自己有什麼好處，而你的好處卻有好多。

沉默，因為你身邊有一個人，而且他對你很好，

我不想破壞你的幸福。

沉默，因為我喜歡自虐。

沉默，因為我怕被你拒絕，我怕你說：『你很好，可是...』 。

我的字典裡，己經有太多『可是』，

我怎麼能夠再承受一次呢？

沉默，是因為我們是好朋友，我怕從此失去一個知己，

又得不到一個情人。

沉默，是我不想你以為我一直為你做那麼多事情，

是因為我暗戀你，而不是欣賞你的才幹。

沉默，因為我不能向你保證些什麼，我不能給你些什麼。

沉默，因為我不想你知道表面上滿不在乎的我，

原來那麼脆弱。

沉默，因為我也許不適合你，

也許有其他人比我更能夠照顧你。

沉默，因為有時候我會害怕當我們終於相戀，

許多美麗的幻想也會隨之破滅。

沉默，因為愛在噯昧不明時最美。

這世上的人有多少，那天上的星就有多少，

人海等於星海，星海浮著人海，

無論你美或醜，聰明或駑鈍，

天上總有一顆守望著你的小星星。

30th March 2008

2day just went tesco with family. Erm, quite lot of ppl, mostly malays(no offence =.=) . Suddenly my mom brought along my "little" cousin along with us, made my "peaceful" journey crushed. Omg, ran here and there, took this and that, climbed up and down(Swt >.<) . Me, the 1 who always wanted to have a brother or sister started to question myself, can I live with child? Izit child always like tat, aiyo cant tahan. Nevertheless I am a person who like to keep thing in control, if it get messed up, I will confuse or fluster(example of a person who cannot succeed, omg). If I have this kind of personality then how can I become the next Bill Gates(eventhough he is not the richest anymore)? If I can't get rich then how can I buy my own house and car and bla bla bla.

17th March 2008

How friendship is gained .. I wonder . thru true heart , offer help as they need , keep smiling no matter what happen ? Maybe I have misunderstand meaning of friendship , but nothing else I can do , maybe I can't go through my life without them , but now i rather spend my time alone , rather than hook out with them . I just feel too tired on this , I feel that close friends are not friends , however the others show more concern than they are . Maybe they don't understand how sensitive and fragile I am ...Hope for a better tomorrow ~~

15th March 2008 - to Kampar

This week I was told by calvin and sam that TA students will have trip to Kampar , to have a visit and looking for house . There is about 7 of our TC class students joined the trip . We had registered to a girl of TA class call vinci (da vinci? She is the organiser ba?) , sam's fren .

Today I had to wake up at 4.30am , just slept for 1 hours smt . lol . I knew I could be late , so I came earlier to lrt station , but the station was still closing , needed to wait , haiz . When reached PD , found out the bus was already at outside of the gate but there was just a few ppls (I was wrong >.<) . Later , all had came 1 by 1 , and I was just waiting for the moment to get into the bus and slept . It was not ran as smooth as I though , my frens kept talk LOUD about the da vinci (said that she is my laopo , omg =.=) , so embarassed...

When it was 7.30am , we went onto the bus and took the last seats and they were still talking about tat . What I do ? slept .. zzzz . It was 2 hours smt for us to reach Kampar and the 1st place we visited is Westlake's showroom (No pic oo) . Then we went to UTAR but didnt know why , we cannot enter , weicung told that we must had the letter of wad wad in order to get in o . Later on , we had lunch at restaurant in Danish's house and had a walk around the houses (actually I knew it is Danish's house after we finished the walk and told by vinci) . We continued by going to somewhere called as pangsapuri sakura(almost named like that , I forget le) .

After finished all , we didn't know where to go , then we called the agent to take us to bandar baru selatan (as recommended by ice's fren) . There had single and double terrace house . After we asked , thought for so long , and the rest had waiting for so long (so sry) , we decided to rent 2 houses here (yeah ! settled !) .

Since all had finished visiting houses , we went aroud the Kampar town before went back to UTAR (pj 1) . On the way back , all seems very tired , because very silent , maybe all had gone sleep .

When reached PJ , it was raining heavily , so heavy that calvin had to ask his father to take me to lrt station (thx o) . Then went home as usual lo . So tired ~~~

15th March 2008

On thursday night I was informed that yesterday night will go swim with 6 ghosts . But on that day , it was raining . When I had prepared everything and jenghui fetched me , he told me it had been cancelled , and was going to steamboat !! Wah , i just had my dinner and needed to eat again meh ? Aiyo .. Then we went to take kokfai and yip lo , then went to restaurant phone (dirent translation..) . While waited for bin , kaihsien and piew , we ate 1st luu ~~ We ate and laughed and talked (blabla) , but then suddenly raining heavily (need to change table,=.=) . We finished at almost 11pm lo , then we went to piew house to rest and waited for ah soon lo , then gwent start match !! . Walauyeh , it ended at almost 3am , zzz . Craze jor ...

13th March 2008

Ek..hmn..I have rotted for almost a month oo, sleeping volcano has to explode again...the pimples.. XD There are few more weeks left before I go to Kampar le. realise that I haven't prepare anything yet. Just can't imagine how fast this 1 year has passed.

Met Malcolm yesterday, looked fine, handsome jor. haha. Hui also, kept reading book, dunno real anot, lol.

Actually will friends in my college show their true-self? This is what some of them told me. Izit that bad? But what I think is, it doesn't matter whether are they show their true-self, what I need to do is open my heart to accept everything, will it be happier? yes lo !!

Sometimes i wonder, y am I here? Souldn't be at somewhere else? Problem of my classmate on course transfering makes me wonder, am I right to choose this path o? It makes me afraids that I am wrong. Shouldn't I cont study science and then architecture?or even engineering? What am I thinking?

The recent business and things make me think less, now often act without think much, izit I hav activate my right brain o?

These days, I didn't think much of her.. Maybe it is good for me. Is it because of her reaction to me? Is she what 6 ghosts said as? When "it" just happened, I felt that I want to know everything about her, but now, I felt that it is better I dunno her, so that I don't know how pain it is, and how hard it could be to love someone. Another way round, it is because of this experience, I know I should appreciate and pay attention to relationship. It is a kind of "degree course" that I have to learn though out my life. ^^

21st February 2008

Actually 2day nth happen , just feel high then post lo , haha . 2day ah yip has planned for 2moro programmes , include movie , swim , erm..erm.. and stay overnight at piew's house , looks like a 1-day trip for me . lol .

It was such a boring day , but at night , suddenly ck n ice told me that exam result is out , and on that time I was eating (It is a shock , and i almost chocked , lol) . It just made me nervous , because I was still at granma house , couldn't checked the result (yerr..) . When home , dad used computer (RESULT!!!) . But when it was time for me to check the result , I don't dare to c it (zadou) . After a period of struggling and chatting , finally c it la of cos , then c lo , then satisfy lo , then happy lo , then high lo , then post lo .

Don't know why these days so care about my look ? Am I sot jor ? Or too boring , nth to do ? Maybe it is time to turn myself into a handsome guy , haha . Time pass thing change ma , include human -- me ...

17th February 2008 - Wai Hong's Birthday

No need to say much , just went and ate !!! This time met many ex-schoolmates , which didn't c for quite period of time , and many of them changed , sry tat I could't recognise , haha . Tat day was reli hot , then hot lo . And thx to ah yip on styling my hair for around half an hour , reli thank you !! Just because of my poor technique on caring my hair (or maybe no technique at all >.<). Ok , following are some picture taken from the party , don't complain that there are too little of them ah !!!

14th February 2008 - Valentine Day

Yesterday recieved a few sms , greet for valentine day , "it comes ? When izit ? Saturday ? So fast ..." I though . Today , recieved more of them , "huh ? Today is valentine day ? Wow !" I though again .

For those who have partner , 2day is a wonderful day to spend their time with their partner . Looking for special gift ; looking for places that can spend time on and having dinner ; think about what to say to them . But most of these are done by guys , so for girls , just relax , haha .

For those who are looking for partner , 2day is one of the day to confess their love . Try to meet their love 1 ; blah blah blah .... ( same same de la ) . Still the same . most of these are done by guys , for girls , just think about accept or reject , lol .

For those who just parted (cham looo) , dunno wad will happen lo .. >.<

Mad

Now very frustrated , trying to find something to punch , scratch , tear !!!!!!!! These days I wrote a few a bit long posts , and when finished , I tried to change to color , then all the content suddenly dissapeared and need to rewrite again !!!! @#$%@$#%$%@# Some1 come to me and let me "seksa" his till death !!!

Feel dissapointed with my mouse , zzzz . I think is because my mouse problem ... =.=

28th January 2008

It has been a long time , not blogging since the starting of exam + some lazy resting period . Ok , I have finished exam on saturday , ending with my general math 2 paper (saddy ending) . Me , went along with my frens (weicung , huishi , junwai , harry + ....) to petaling street to walk (my main purpose is comics XD) . Not long after I got my books , went home le ~~~ tats already around 8pm .

On sunday -- shopping day with my family . We went to Midvalley . Many ppls o , we went to the lowest floor n no parking (sunday ma) !!! Then the guard brought us to park on side of the road , wah , can ah ? This time our purpose is buy cny goods (clothes ah , foods ah , cleaner etc ...) . Then when it came to half time (after 3-4 hours) , we took a break at breadstory , when looked at the poem on the wall , it talked about bread but dunno wad story , haha . Then we continue shopped . At last , we bought many things oo , around 10 bags . When in the car , I realised tat most of the thing is mine de !!! (because most of the time , I just bought few things) .

Ok , today , nth to do . Actually I had meeting -- watch Rambo 4 , but 2day felt not very well . Then Didn't go le . That's all .

15th January 2008

Wahaha .. Kinda sot le , it it going to exam in next week . But nothing I have done on study . I think I should be struggling , between studying and gaming , but i choose gaming , what a failure !!! Aiya , what to do now ?! Nvm , I think I can handle the exam ... gua ~~~ Ok , tats all . >.<>

8th January 2008

Zzz.. woke up by the snooze of my clock alarm -- 4.30a.m. OMG !!! I 4got to turn it back to 5a.m. , half an hour of sweet dream wasted =.= . Since I had half an hour more , I brushed teeth slowly , ate slowly , bathed slowly , finally 6a.m. , time to go school .

When reached school , my group member , weicung told me the assessment marks ... made me sad only T.T . Later on , me who dunno anything , was asked by my group to present the graph on business class , haha , nervous again , dunno what I said when presentation , just err.. err.. err.. how useless I am =.= . Then , mass com teacher released the mass com marks too , made me even more sad . haiyoo ~~ Nvm , still standing , hoped I will survived till the last minute .

After the boring mass com lecture , a gang of "warrior" went to donate blood in PD (1 of the UTAR building) included me XD . Some of them were forced to donate blood , haha . Me , who wanted to give it a try , were trying to calm down my nervousness (when filled in the form , my hand was still shaking , lol) , of course la , this was my 1st time ma . leeping who wanted donate de so scare , filled in form also scare (aiyo , so cha 1) , said that she felt headache ("blood-phobia" ?). When sitting on the "operation" chair , what I thought I should do was just slept , but couldn't oo , just felt comfortable lo . The doctor came le , OMG , he injected anaesthesia needle on my arm . Then he brought out a "huge" needle which was used to "suck" blood out of my body !!! omg , omg ! I didn't dare to look at my arm on that moment , just felt that something was thrusted into my arm , felt nothing , just a bit weird . After a moment , when I tought that he should had finished "inserting" , I looked at my arm , OMG !!! He was still kept pushing in and out the needle to find the correct spot , and it continued for a few minutes , aiyo , I am not a toy in your lab la , Mr. Doctor !! Finally , he settled and I felt calm (half was because he finished "playing" the needle , other half was , no need to see his blur blur face .) . But the climax just came , just after the Mr.Doctor went off , a nurse came to me and asked me who was the person just helped me out . When I told her that the person was the Doctor , she said that he had put the needle wrongly , OMG !!!! Luckily I didn't faint on that moment . The nurse was so pro o , she just adjusted a little bit , my blood came out very fast le (before that was slow like hell) . Thx god , 南摩阿弥陀佛 ~~

Ok , filled up a packet of blood le (I knew it only when the nurse told me so , because I still concerntrated on squeezing the "PVC water pipe" . Felt nothing oo , no dizzy no felt disgust . I was ok o . Then I took a packet of "souvenir" -- consisted of a bottle of mineral water , Colgate toothpaste , Colgate mouthwash , a muffin , a peer (the fruit ah) and a certificate . When going out , found that there was a corner for resting , and I was given a cup of Milo , ermmm ... so good . By the way , finished off the muffin 1st , haha , so hungry . Then all went to canteen lo , because all seemed to b very hungry o , but I just bought a bar of mentos , sweet ma , suitable to consume after blood donation , recovered back the sugar in our body . Then got math class lo , back to class and studied ...

Izit meaningful ? Yes , I think it is , and it is a good experience too , as my 1st time . Think about my blood will b used to save the other who in need , so proud of myself , haha . oh yeah , my blood type is O oo , can helped more ppl lo , almost every1 , yeah !

7th January 2008

2day should b going to school , but my dad's car broke down yesterday , so lazy again lo , slept till noon . But actually I planned to take bus 2day de , but .. nvm .

What important is , 2day just got scolded by dad ( + almost slapped , but I blocked it , =.=) . This story started weeks ago , the astro in my house got problem - always "service is currently not available" and couldn't watched anything . I had made a few calls to the service centre , but waited for almost half an hour , no responce ; climbed to the roof and checked the anthenna , no problem ; e-mail to the astro "contact me" , no responce also .

Then , when dad came back from work , he reminded me to call again , I still sat for a while before going to call (got scolded again) , after call , dad said why don't you bla bla bla . Then I told him that why he didn't told me that earlier , then volcano exploded loo~~ . He said that the phone receptionist had told him to checked the decoder earlier and I had no need to repeat it again bla bla bla , but actually ... !!! The receptionist didn't told me to do the same thing , she just wanted me to call her back when there was no rain in my area (on that time was raining) , because she needed to check the dunno what in my area and she will send me a technician when there was a problem . But on that time , when facing dad , I didn't say anything , eventhought a lot of thing wanted to get out of my mouth -- the TRUTH !! Then my granma who knew a bit dunno a bit participated such a deadlock . The only thing flashed in my mind is -- went to sleep , dun wan to think le , dun want to bother this thing le . haiyo .

Later when no rain , I called again . After doing all the thing she told me to , she said will send a technician to my house 2moro (but she said is 24 hours later lo , same same la) . Had to told that to my dad , eventhought had to look at his "black" face , "deng ng shun" !! Haiz ...

Then , when my uncle's whole family came to my house to have dinner(because today is "chu yi") . My granma told them what happened today (OMG!!!) . No face , after rushing to finish my dinner , I quickly went to my room . =.= Cham .

5th December 2007 -- meet yunbok

When woke up , it was already 11am something , actually woke up earlier de , but too lazy , so slept more lo . Dunno what to do at home , so I walked to kokfai house and played games , when reached there , I got some "surprise" (actually was "came not in time" , claimed by kokfai) , without noticed , it had been 5pm something . Then , kokfai wanted to take a walk and chat lo (actually is commune la) and then started to rain , so went home lo .

Tonite was important day to meet ah bok , who had left us (primary school frens) long time ago . We got to mamak restaurant to meet them , all primary school frens . This time was had the highest attendants , because many had came , who never came before attend too . We talked a lot of feihua loo , and knew ah bok more about his recents . So to the others . This time was the 1st time saw ah bok , wan wei , li qun (spell like this ? haha) and boon cheng , who never came before on any of the previous gathering , haha . Wads more ? Aha , the next 6M gathering organizer is jenghui (passed on by our previous organizer -- soon cheong , who will go to US) , ah bok said that he don't have gf , so cham , lol . Ah bok grown up looo ~~ tall le , handsome le , but still the same face , so easy to recognise oo . Li qun had gained a lot in "size" and still talked a lot oo . Found that ah bok talked so politely , 阴声细气的 , haha . Then about wan wei ah .. most of the time talked to jia huan only , maybe felt unfamiliar gua (at least better than me , lol) . Dunno why , peiwen clashed a glass (too excited gua) . By the way , yu yen and li qun went home le , maybe not allowed to went home late (so strict o).

11pm something , it started to rain again , so we had to pack up and RUN !!! But not ran anywhere else , we aimed KFC as our next target , but when we reached there , the forwards kena "trap" -- KFC doors were just painted !!! haha . Somemore the smell of paint is too heavy , so we had to choose another location again -- Taj Mahal (not rice) and yumcha again . Since the environment was quiet , sooncheong started to talk about his "love story" (not love story la , some how is a 猜心游戏故事) , so complicated , felt sleepy after listened to his story , lol . Finally , it was 12pm something , jenghui reminded us to leave . Then left loo . Disband ~~ dunno when will meet ah bok again , since he lived at sarawak . So to the others . FOREVER 6M !!!

4th January 2007

2day is my test 3 of g.math , it is easier than expected , haha (luckily =.=) . Then go persatuan teo chew to pass up the scholarship form , but the mr.lee there remind me that I had forgotten to bring along my stamp (omg!) for the return letter , but luckily he had supply of stamp ^^ . After passed up the form , he talked a lot about a new scholarship (actually not alot , just kept repeating , lol) , I can only listened . After "escaped" from there , I realise it had been 5pm something .

When in lrt , rain suddenly started , and gained heavy , me who stood near the door found that rain dropped almost vertically (cause of fierce wind lo) , luckily had my file to block the rain (many ppl ah , cannot went inside anymore) . When reach bukit jalil , all path was flooded (not so critical la) , but once my shoe touched the water , straight away wet liao (i mean the whole shoe , just like a sponge =.=) and had stood there and waited for almost an hour for my dad (so tired..) , while looked at others who came out from lrt station and left ; bus came and left ... sienzz .

2nite , kokfai's dad brought mr along wif kokfai to Pearl Point to take my new specs , which I had chosen on last night at shop where his bro works at. The specs are different than my old 1 (big different) , of course lo , I never changed my specs for 3+ years , the old 1 can be kept as antique liao , haha . After wore the specs felt very dizzy oo , but kokfai's bro told me that it was normal , because I still couldn't get used to this specs oo (mayb gua , not sure o) .

Tats all for 2day , good nite . lol .

New Year Countdown

When ahbian's mom came up to tell us that it was time to countdown , we all rushed down to entrance . All ahbian's sister's frens , ahbian's family were already there . The girls quickly found a place to sit , while the guys walking around .Then shot photo again ~~~ After that , we went out to the field outside of ahbian's house , looking for some "firework show" , but we can only heard some sound of the firework (pity) . I found that weiyang not feeling well (mayb eat too much ? or drunk already ?) .

Since the countdown had finished , most of them went home le , include all the girls (bye~~) , the 1 who left were all the hamsap guys lo (except yuken and jenghui who were too hamsap till folo the girls went home XD , lol ) because we will stayed at ahbian's hosue for 1 nite . Here are the photo again :